"Volver" . penelope cruz and cancer. to sex and the city. with cancer to commercial breaks. with penelope cruz. life is amusingly round like that... some times i miss you so much. that i wish i'd died with you. and on those occasions...even my crying takes on a different nature. the pain is mute. and blunt. and piercing. it creeps from places i didn't know existed. it's crying from the deepest parts of my soul. it overtakes me. yet i can't feel it. it floods my insides and overflows in silent streams. and as it pours out of me, i feel a little bit of me escaping also. like steam. just like steam. and my tears are a different consistency...one that numbs my face completely. so the steam wont burn and blind me. tears that fill my pores in order to muffle what sounds manage to slip out. tears that saturate your absence and make the distance between us shorter with a river of your love so that all i want to do is float...away...with you... what would i do if i saw you on the street. what would i give for another life time. you were cheated out of yours. and i'm lost in mine without you. ...volver. --como quisiera darte algunos de mis an~os. serian menos los que tendria que extran~arte.-- | 